hello there

its the first of august. you know what that means? 23 more days until school starts. i'm kind of excited but kind of nervous. its gonna be my last first day of my undergraduate career. can you believe that? i'm really graduating this december! i'm excited! so i've been so stressed out the past couple of weeks because of my loan for school and it is giving me a headache! i'm so glad we got it all figured out. in the end i learned that the only ones i could really rely on is family. i'm so blessed to have such great parents and siblings as well as great aunts & uncles who are willing to help me out. too bad my original plan backfired and didn't go through. therefore it means that i will be commuting to school now. i really have no choice anymore and its something i have to live with. all i really need to do and that is most important to me is to graduate. its gonna be a pretty tough semester because i'm actually gonna try to find a job so i can pay out my bills since i'm not gonna have a refund this year since i didn't get a loan. its so frustrating that the only person that could help me get my loan didn't. -__-. whatever. its over now and its fixed.

my only real problem now is money. i have no money to pay for my bills, no money to give to my parents and not enough money for gas/books/school supplies. i wish i had all the money in the world to do everything i can but i dont. so my only solution to this no money business is to try to get a decent paying job! i can't do anything without money so i have no choice. so this fall looks like i'm gonna be commuting, looking for a job/working, otc stuff, going home etc. all on the very hardest semester of my life. i have to squeeze in time to study in between that & some family and boyfriend time.

ok besides school stuff. summer has been quite relaxing. i am not working so i've just been home relaxing, going out occasionally, and taking care of my puppies. i really need to find a job. i tried to find an internship or a job this summer that would help me out with my accounting career but i couldn't find anything. now i'm looking for jobs for when i can work in the fall. i really want to get one so that after i graduate, they could possibly offer me a position so that i dont have to worry about trying to find a new job to pay for my loans. -_-

for some reason all of my subjects end up with me talking about school and loans. enough of that

ok uhm in the middle of july me and gee went to san diego and LA! we stayed in SD for a night to hang out with gee's friends, we left like at 2am and got to sd around 10. when we got there we relaxed a bit, ate, swam, and slept. we were so tired from the drive. we went out at night to a bar or a few bars/lounges but finally ended up at this place with a mechanical bull! haha it was so funny cause keith rode it and almost fell out when he was getting off the area. lol. the next day we went to disneyland with his sister, marc and trish. we picked up marc & trish from the airport then checked in at our hotel then we went to disneyland! :) it was so crazy at first cause it was SUPER HOT and all the lines were like 1-2 hrs long! we got a few fast passes then ate dinner. after we ate all the lines got shorter and we got to go on the rides we really wanted to. it was super fun. our feet were so tired but we still had to go to world of color! it was totally worth it! it was so beautiful that i ALMOST CRIED! almost! lol we ended the day eating the chicken sandwhiches at the hotel and slept for so long! we didn't wake up the next day til like 10 then we went swimming. after we went swimming we dropped off marc and trish to the airport and we headed to downtown LA to go to Santee Alley! or as the locals say it "the alley." it was an awesome experience because we got some super cheap stuff and theyre pretty cool too! we were still tired but we went to venice beach afterwards! it was so pretty there and the sand felt so good on my feet after 2 long days of walking everywhere! we finished off the day eating at joe's crab shack as our last meal since we didn't really eat out when we went to LA. the next day we packed our things, left the hotel, then went to downtown disney to eat and ddo some last minute browsing before we went home. we also went to portos on the way home! we watched the movies we bought from santee to kill time going home and it seemed a lot faster getting home than going there. lol. i couldn't wait to be home because bb was waiting for me! :) that was the end of our trip! it was super relaxing and much needed. i got a little dark but not too much. the color is already fading lol.

hmm dont really know what else to say now because i'm getting sleepy. i have a long day ahead tmrw. i'm going to sf to eat dinner for ktine's bday. finally she is 21!

ok goodnight!